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Tuesday, November 04, 2008

The magic circle of life. To be born, to be young, to be old and to die. The never endless chain or cycle that never fails to take place. Everyone in this domain which we call life will inevitably be subjected to its power.

ROUND ROUND BABY

Have you all look at the sky lately, that big circular burning orb which existence is crucial to the survival of not only Earth, but other planets in this solar system. Circles or more exact, spheres are of importance to us. It represents life. cycle. and some might call a ritual. What goes around comes around. Why? Because we are living in a circle. What goes up must come down, what goes west...will be in the east at one point.

In this cycle, there are stages. I categorize life into 6 stages. The Slacker, The Lost, The Seeker, The Leader and lastly The Legend. For those who don' t understand what these words means, Let me help you in that.

The Slacker - As a kid, All we do is play and study. We might have believed that we did put in a lot of effort in studying...but seriously, How much work can a kid get himself in.

The Lost - Teen hood, need I say more

The Seeker - As young adults, we seek valuable knowledge in preparing ourselves in this journey

The Leader - The stage where one is married and has a family. We can never run away from leadership. As much as we do want to be a follower, We just cant.

The Legend - Old and grey.....what ever success that you have brought to yourself and your family will make you into a legend. You'd be the story people would love to tell. Even if you are not successful. You'd still be a legend......its just that you'd be the negative example.

I received lots of wedding cards lately......darn I'm feeling old. Why don't people send me wedding proposals as well (HAHA).

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Saturday, October 18, 2008

I was or maybe I still am, a 'deep' person. I like to think....as in think if things that im not suppose to. I don't know why but its becoming more of a habit. This is one of those times I was feeling rather 'deep' and spiritual. I wonder if you guys can get what I was trying to convey

REWIND 0.1

Mute

September 2nd, 2007 by yanzryo

I tried to look for the stars tonight….but I cant seem to find any…any of the ones I remember seeing. However…I know that they are there…hiding themselves from view….for maybe they are unable to glow as bright, Deemed to be in isolation.

The moon seemed bright…..its majaestic pressence, overshadowing any in the night sky….occasionally wraping itself underneath a blanket of clouds…or at times peeking through from the darkness, shy and unsure.

When was the last time we actually sit down and observe. Observe the wealth of creation surrounding us.Looking out for that favourite star we had since we were young….or the familiar smell of dusk when we open our eyes.We used to be amazed by so many things when we were young. By the first glimps of the morning sun…..till the ever blue eternal sky,painted with patches of white clouds or occasionlly decorated with ribbons of white.

As we grow older…..we forget all this things…is it complacency? is it ignorence? Slowly…one by one….the stars are hiding….intimidated by us…or even upset that no one seem to marvel at its beauty. The chirping of birds in the morning silenced by the rumbling engines and irritating honking of cars. The sweet melody of the rivers dampen by the noise we sometimes call music.

Mankind wanted to conquer the world…and they did. Like a plague sweeping across vast continents, uprooting anything in their path. Ironically….they wonder at times…what is their purpose in life. Some had the vision clear…while some vaguely remembers the idea in mind. At the instant we came out from the passage to this realm. The first breath of air…the first cry….what was it that we were told to do. As strangers held our frail body…as stange faces became familiar….did we try remembering the message we were to convey…or were we swept away by what this world has to offer.

This transitional realm…on borrowed time. Govern by its new human masters. We tend to be ignorant of this fact. That we are here for only a while. Restraint by ideals we ourselve create….restraint by ideas we ourselve create. Man wants the world.Being a tear drop in the vast ocean of tears….tears shed by the angels and the native beings before…are we blind? or do we choose to be blind….are we deaf or are do we choose to be deaf…but one thing we are not…is dat we are not mute.Words that are poisonous to us and the entities around. Words that drift us away from what we should do.We spoke……but unsure if its the ones we were suppose to be speaking of.

Gravity did ITS job in anchoring all of us to the ground….ITS amused by how proud man sounded when he claim dat he can deny IT. As man soar in his new found toys…how IT wish it has the power to not only ground Man physically…but also his swelling ego. To remind Man that they are like a grain of sand…whose destination is not in their power…whose destination is determined by the rivers or wind that moves it around.

I want to look at the stars again….I want to be enchanted once more by their beauty.I want to wake up from this nightmare. I want to no longer be deaf or blind. As I begin on this new path…not walking..but crawling in humility. Ashamed of the ignorance thats in me. Ashamed for being who I am, Ungrateful in every sense. As I crawl towards that beacon ahead…I will try to remember my best the message that im suppose to convey..the message that was entrusted. And when I reach the passage…greeted by hands alien to me….I hope to remember….

……I MUST.

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So..did you get it?

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Thursday, October 16, 2008

I was looking at my previous entries from the various domains that I have and its hard to believe some of the things that I can come out with. Anyways I have decided to actually have a repost of the entries that I think is useful.

REWIND

DISCLAIMER: Past performance does not equate to future performance.
haven't you heard? People change.... :)

LOVE

July 16th, 2007 by yanzryo

LOVE…a four letter word that means nothing to some…but alot to others…….

Like respect, to get it or feel it, you must give it. Its something you have to show. By wat means…that is up to you and the person you love….

Ultimately, it has to be felt…for optimum results.

If you love someone alot…..show them you sincerely do…or even do stupid stuff for them. Do not be shocked if you do not get the same treatment in return. For to some, you do not have to show love to say that you love someone. Like I said before, for both to benefit from it, being mutual is the best.

For if both knows the extend of love each other has for each other, small problems can be settled, your mind wont get to the state of paranoia, simply state, love conquers all.

So think about it, when was the last time you told that special someone you really love him/her. not just by words, but by actions…which adds on to the sincerity. If you have not done so, try before its too late. Maybe just drop by his/her place with gifts, surprise him/her w a hug….you know…nice heart warming stuff.

Fuel. Things in life cant run long without ‘fuel’. like cars, we also need ‘fuel’ to work. nutritious food to fuel our strength to carry out various activities, challenging problems to fuel our minds to think and be alert, motivations to fuel our spirits….and what about love? Love also need that fuel.Sometimes..after years of marriage….couples tend to realise that their love for each other is declining.Why? that is because they take each other for granted. To think that being married itself is a life long pledge of love.Wrong.That is because, they fail to once in a while refuel their love, do something sweet for their partner, do that sacrifice once more as they did during courtship…dats the missing key.

If you believe that marriage is just a compromise between two people, than I am sad for you. True,compromise is important, thats where sacrifices lies.If there is no love to begin with, would you even get married in the first place? Im not talking about fix marriages. Im talking about love before marriage…the kind that most of us are looking for. But to get this, are you ready to give as well? theres no one way road here…theres always two.

Men by nature are tough in the emotions department. They may appear that they do not need to be shown love and stuff. However, the truth is, no matter how different both sexes are, we are both humans, born with a heart..with a capacity to feel. Maybe because of ego, it may appear that they do not want to be mushily treated. that doesnt mean you do not show them you love them. The key is occasionally. Occasionally show them you love them. For like women, we men also want to be loved. So, if you keep failing in relationships with man, think about it, have you been a good partner? Did you show your man what they mean to you..not juz verbally.

Women on the other hand…are very emotional. They need to be loved, to be secure. If you guy doesnt give you or show you that, be patient, look out for signs, hes sure to have done something nice to you…even how minute it is to you, for him its a great deal. over time…when hes comfortable, he will open more. However if he doesnt…maybe it is time to assess him on how much you really mean to him, or are you being taken on a ride (Spare Tyre)…till a better offer comes along

However, there are also guys who are very loving and passionate towards women. This I should say are the rare cases. However if you do come upon one, do not let him always be the one doing things…for sooner or later, if you do not comply to his feelings, then he may feel that hes the spare tyre. communicate. understand each other…show love to each other..

Show love to the person to the level that he/she shows love.I got this from someone. and i think it is very practical. If your partner keeps saying that they are helplessly romantic and stuff like that, do not be fooled into giving him/her what he/she wants…as in how he/she picture to be treated. For if they are the kind they say, they will act as how they want to be treated. so lay back…see how he/she treets you…and act accordingly… so in this case, you dont feel deprived and neither will the other party

Sad to say, for a guy I am hopelessly romantic. I try to give the best that I can offer to my partners. However, its been tried and tested that it doesnt seem to work that way. Cos some people just cannot treasure the things you do for them.Maybe they need more time to realise…or maybe their ego’s like that, BUT you have to take effort in confirming and not just give up. Im speaking in general of course. I believe in the concept of soulmate. That there is someone out there made for me. However, soulmates are humans as well. if you dont work out the relationship, things will end eventually. You are not so lucky as too marry that soulmate without any test.For I believe, God do not just give things that precious that easily. You have to go thru lots of hardships and tests…to know for certain whether he/she is the one. A relationship without flaws is fake. For nothing is perfect in this world. I kinda interviewed and studied a few marriages and relationships…and none of the sustaining ones manage to survive so long without fights and arguments. That i believe is the challenge….and at the end of the day….when everything resides…IF the love is strong…things will get better for both.Learn and move on together….

So if your expecting your soulmate to be a knight in a shining armor kinda thing…To be perfect and flawless…to always be full in love w each other….WAKE UP. That only happen in movies…maybe more like cartoons.

Call me jiwang call me silly or say that I am living in my fantasy world.Say what you want…but I am responsible for ME. This is how i am and I am not shy to admit it.

Things that I learn in the past week is to be responsible for yourself. For no one can help you if you are not. And right now, I am taking that responsibility. I am being responsible for my life. No more excuses.

"Judge and ye shall be judge", Abraham Lincon

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

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I cant believe I wrote that :P

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Part of the job scope as a financial advisor is that you are expected to be on the move ( or run when you are extremely late ). I realise that in this few months, Ive taken more busses then I ever did in the past 2 years. By that I mean new service number. Part of the perk that I get also is that I can have time to catch up with friends or do some quick shopping without having to fight with the weekend or evening crowd.

THE F1 BUS

I was rushing off to meet a friend just now and I don't know if you guys have seen this before, but I boarded an F1 bus. No kidding. It had BUCKET seats. I mean The only time i've sat in a bucket sit was in the arcade. Imagine a bus having that. Don't believe me? I have proof

The only thing missing here are seatbelts and a cool driver

Now where are those seatbelts ;)

They even have lane markings!

Check out the back seats..

It was an awesome ride indeed. Although I dont feel like im in a racecar, the experience sure was different. So tell me, have you guys been in one before?

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Monday, October 13, 2008

Ok ive been trying to find a nice theme for my multiply site. I wish to have a nice black theme but till now, none of them catches my attention. So I decided to have this theme up for the moment.

FACE LIFT

Ok why the face-lift you might ask. Well the previous Naruto theme to me was awesome, however, I'm thinking of making this multiply site as a one stop domain to keep friends and whoever who drops by' updated with stuff about myself both personally and professionally. As I am in the Financial Advisory business, I think this is a good platform to give my professional advise as well as personal advise. This is a service that I am providing to the public..so why not share it here too.

So for the meantime do bear with the current theme. If you have any good black themes to share, please let me know ;)

Take care peeps

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Friday, September 14, 2007

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Gersang ketandusan

Di dalam senyumanmu terdapat kesedihan
Sayu dan pilu memakan hati sucimu
Sesungguhnya kejam dunia fana ini

Nilai hati sudah hilang erti
Bangkitlah mu semagat jati
Dari tidurmu selama ini
Diperlukan mu masa ini

Untuk menempuh onak duri
Hati lembut berbicara Semoga kau mengampuninya
Namun akal teguh berdiri
Cintanya tiada sucinya lagi

Angin kencang mengegari bumi
Air hujan jatuh tak terhenti
Usah kamu menangisi lagi
Kerana tak mungkin kita bersama lagi

Lembu dipegang dengan talinya
Manusia pula dengan janjinya
Jika hancur kepercayaan kita
Maka hancurlah segala galanya

Kita beriman pada yang satu
Jawapan mu tiada padaku
Rujuklah kau kembali PadaNya
Dan redha akan keputusanNYa

Ada hikmah disebalik semua
Mungkin ini Jalan termulia
Agar kita mampu melangkah
Ke arah baru yang lebih bermakna

-YanZ-

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